|
[14 Jul 2004|03:52pm] |
Kyle Robert Meade is my bestest friend and I can tell him everything... and yeah.
I'm on the phone telling him to put all of this down.
<3
|
|
|
[11 Jul 2004|11:32pm] |
Me (Ashley) and my friend Kyle are bisexual.
And we wanted to tell everyone.
So this is how we are.
|
|
|
[25 May 2004|03:34pm] |
|
what the poop happened to my journal????!!!! whats wrong with it???!! AHHH!!
|
|
|
[15 May 2004|01:11pm] |
|
hello peoples! im about to go to the mall with andrea and lance in like 2 seconds. fun fun. toodles
|
|
| woo! |
[28 Apr 2004|09:06pm] |
|
HEWWO! This is Andrea updating Ashley's journal for her. Cause I'm cool and I know her password. And um..she never gets to update it anyways. Anyways..I'm piecing myself out. I love ya ashley.
|
|
| Whoa.. |
[07 Mar 2004|03:04pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 confused |
] |
I'm thinking about using this journal again. Because Andrea's email is screwed up and I can't comment in anyones journal or anything like that with my new one. I think I should make this one friends only too if I do start using this one again. I wonder if anyone will read this?
|
|
|
[20 Feb 2004|09:17pm] |
|
this is probably the last time ill ever be updating this journal.
|
|
|
[18 Feb 2004|07:45pm] |
|
someone called my house and talked to my parents about my journal..thanks alot whoever you are.
|
|
|
[17 Feb 2004|02:58pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 depressed |
] |
its hilarious how fucking pathetic i am.
i want to hurt. i want to feel the pain. i want to know that this is all real. and not some nighmare im dreaming. i want to feel the blade of the knife rip into my skin. i want to watch the blood drip to the floor. i want to feel that sharp sting. i crave it. i urge for it. why does it have to be like this? whats wrong with me? why doesnt anyone know? why arent i fucking happier?? my friends all love me. and i love them. my family loves me. and i love them. i have a wonderful boyfriend whom i adore. WTF IS WRONG WITH ME?! i need a nice good hard slap, or, a knife driven into my vain.
|
|
| man.. |
[16 Feb 2004|08:18pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 lethargic |
] |
sometimes i wonder why i even try to stop. somewhere inside of me i know that it will happen again. but i will try as hard as i can not to for as long as i can. i cant bare to hurt anyone anymore either. i love them all so dearly. im starting to sleep alot again. and not care about school. eventho my mom said that im going to transfer to a christian school if i dont bring my grades up. im not eating well either. well that hasnt really changed. im starting to feel the depression overwhelm me again. i feel so lost and sad and alone. sometimes i just want to one more good time. and then that will be it. but if i do it again...there are consiquenceses*sp. it pains me to look at it.
well on a better note i guess ive given up trying to learn the drums and i think im going to get a bass and learn that. i think itll be easy. hopefully. ive also quit the piano. even though i like playing it. um..i dont really know what else there is to say. music is my life. but i dont know whats happening.
uhm..i dont know what else there is to say....uh...i miss alot of people. and...yeah. toodles
|
|
| i cut myself to peices, it pours, it rains, and it doesnt make any sense |
[16 Feb 2004|03:16pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 cheerful |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
red hot chilli peppers |
] |
ColeZeroBaker666: dummy
bloodyxxtearz: dork
ColeZeroBaker666: lezbo
bloodyxxtearz: homo
ColeZeroBaker666: ;lkj;dfadsf
ColeZeroBaker666: head
bloodyxxtearz: butt
bloodyxxtearz: ljhfoutduc;
ColeZeroBaker666: at least i dont listen to gay music
ColeZeroBaker666: afi
ColeZeroBaker666: good charlotte
bloodyxxtearz: at least im not a homosexual like you
ColeZeroBaker666: im not gay
ColeZeroBaker666: and your a slut
bloodyxxtearz: no im not
ColeZeroBaker666: surrrreeee
ColeZeroBaker666: thats what they all say
bloodyxxtearz: whos "they"
ColeZeroBaker666: all the sluts in the world
bloodyxxtearz: whoa
bloodyxxtearz: what a retard
ColeZeroBaker666: whoa
ColeZeroBaker666: what a slut
bloodyxxtearz: whoa
bloodyxxtearz: what a gaywad
what an intelligent loving conversation. AND I STILL NEED MY FISHNET BACK...LIKE..SOON!! but i still heart you lancey.
I LOVE YOU STEVE!!!!!!
|
|
| yay! |
[15 Feb 2004|03:33pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 annoyed |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
The Great Dissapointment-AFI! |
] |
Well yesterday I went to the movies with Pandrea, her Steve, and my Steve. It was great. :D
And today I'm hoping to hang out with Derrick or Seth. I haven't seen either of them in a loooooong time.
And my mom is like on her period or something. damnit. I'm about to rip all of my hair out. She's driving me crazy.
Well that's all for now, TOODLES!
You have a dominant kiss- you take charge and make
sure your partner can feel it! Done artfully,
it can be very satisfactory if he/she is into
you playing the dominant role MEORW!
What kind of kiss are you?
brought to you by Quizilla
|
|
| EWWWWW FEEET |
[13 Feb 2004|06:10pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
discontent |
] |
HOLY MOTHER OF ALL SPAGETTI NOODLES I ABSOLUTELY HATE FEET WITH THE PASSION!!
whoaa i almost did it..i was walking towards it without even thinking and almost picked it up...it was really weird. i still feel like i wanna have crying spells too.
OOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHH WEEEEEEEEELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL :D
I HEART YOU CHRISTIE...sorry i couldnt go with you todayyy!!!!!
|
|
| LETS PLAY FIRE THE BABY SITTER |
[12 Feb 2004|03:02pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
loved |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
IM to Brittany! yay i heart her |
] |
Well this is going to be a long one I think..
--Tuesday--
I FINALLY came back to school. And guess what the first thing I did was...TRIPPED AND FELL! Yeah that was kind of embaressing. And I got to see everyone that I missed! HEATHER STEVE AMBER ALLISON JERRY...heck yes. I didn't really do anything else on Tuesday...at least not that I can think of right now.
--Wednesday--
Went to school, only this time I didn't trip and fall and cut my hand all up. haha Because I'm such a WONDERFUL student I didn't have any of my work ready to turn in:) And then I went to the dance with Steve. I think I ruined everyones time tho bkuz I CAN'T EFFING DANCE! I'm sorry if I did you guys..but I WARNED YOU! I tried to dance tho but I don't think it worked. hahaaa OMGSH..I was fighting with Jerry kuz he wanted to see my safety pin and I wouldn't let him and then Steve just comes up behind me and gives me a kiss on the cheek a teddy bear and chocolates. omgsh it was so cool. I think that he thought that I didn't like it. :-[ WELL GUESS WHAT STEVE YOU'RE RIGHT I DIDN'T LIKE IT...I LOVED IT! haha I love you. Then my mommy took me to the doctors and then I came home and was a lazy bum like always. I all of a sudden got real dizzy and tired so I went to sleep. And that helped.
--Today--
Well I just got home from school and I'm sneaking on the computer AGAIN. And I'm about to kill my fucking dog...ANYONE INTRESTED IN HAVING A 6 OR 7 MONTH OLD YELLOW LAB?! lol no im kidding. Tonight I'm going to that pre-festival band thing. I don't think we're gonna be any good kuz the 8th graders don't know how to fucking play.
--Other Thoughts--
Um........
On Saturday I'm taking Steve to the movies and I"M paying for EVERYTHING.
I"M OFF GROUNDING TOMORROW!! YAYNESS
Andrea Mayle-I fucking miss you. I hope you're getting better and I will call you tomorrow!!..kuz i love you! to peices!
Lance Henry-I no longer want my fishnet back...I need it. So give it back to me or I will come over your house and beat the shit out of you. KAY?! :D no I'm kidding but I really do need my fishnet back.
Derrick Williams-I miss you and you have to come over again!
Mooney-I had a SLURPEE! the other day! yay! haha
Ronald Terry-Whoa I'm gonna miss you like ALOT when you change schools. :( So many good times..especially in art! Jeez me you and Heather are like the three muskateers! I guess we could always hang out er whatever. I heart you!
Stephen Casey-There's really not much I can say to express my feelings. You were there for me when I needed you the most and when I didn't. You're so wonderful to me I honestly couldn't ask for anyone better. I hope I never loose you babe. You are my good feeling. I frickin love you.
|
|
| it's that bad... |
[10 Feb 2004|03:37pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
bitchy |
] |
wow..i didn't really realize how bad it was.
im fucking having withdrawls from that shit.
..damnit.
its my fault tho..
|
|
| yayness |
[06 Feb 2004|10:00pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
calm |
] |
i made a new friend
his name is john
he is coolness.
|
|
|
[06 Feb 2004|09:09pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
content |
] |
um.i dont really wanna talk about the last few days...
STEVE CASEY....You are my good feeling:) I heart you dear.
|
|
| <3 |
[03 Feb 2004|05:25pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
confused |
] |
| [ |
music |
| |
[Untitled]-AFI |
] |
xxa firexxinside: ashley i love you and i will always be here for you
xxa firexxinside: do the best you can to stay strong ashley. there are so many people who are here for you.
AAAAHHHH I love you soooooo much you could NEVER EVER know...you could never even get an idea. I love you so much and I always will...no matter what.
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small}
singingforsoap's journal
hyper
hungry